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Fallen Idols: "Hey? You wanna drive?"
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"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." -- e.e. cummings

"Every human being on this earth is born with a tragedy and it isn't original sin. He's born with the tragedy that he has to grow up. That he has to leave the nest, the security, and go out to do battle. He has to lose everything that is lovely and fight for a new loveliness of his own making and it's a tragedy. A lot of people don't have the courage to do it." -- Helen Hayes

"Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war, love is growing up." -- James Baldwin



This was a funny monster of the week episode (who knew Paris Hilton would be so good at being sarcastically evil? Dare I say it, but she pulled it off nicely) that finished where Sam and Dean left off at The End. It was mostly lighter in tone which was welcome, but intermixed were still the unresolved issues surrounding our boys. Coming back together didn't mean all was well with them. On the contrary, because there is more to their problems than Abe Lincoln, Gandhi and Paris Hilton. However, what I loved about the angst that came with this episode was that it finally brought home the essence of their relationship, the good, the bad and the ugly of it. It was about Sam asking to be allowed to grow up and Dean acknowledging that he's had Sam on too tight a leash. And THE BEST symbol of trust and change for Dean was letting Sam drive. Dean could not have said anything in words that would have said as much to Sam than to let Sam drive the Impala. It was just AMAZING!!!!! I cheered and sighed at the same time!

Once again, it was the ending that brought the tension to a head, but in a calm and understanding way. Nothing cruel and nothing truly painful, at least not in the way that they have been treating each other in the past. It was all about admission and apology:

"Point is, I was so worried about watching your every move that I didn't see what it was actually doing to you. So for that, I'm sorry."

The cornerstone of Dean's behavior towards Sam for all their lives has been about taking care of him, watching his back, and in many ways smothering him with a protection entrusted to him by their father and promised by him to their father, but by doing it, he wasn't allowing Sam to come into his own. It might have been okay when they were kids, but, finally, Sam had to tell Dean that it was because of that protection, a protection that as Sam got older and especially in the last couple of years had begun to make him feel suffocated and maybe more simply he felt distrusted, that Dean didn't think he could handle himself, so much so that he began to feel resentful to the point of escaping Dean's control by going to Ruby. It's not to say that Sam's solution was the best of decisions, but one could understand it a little in the light of all that's happened and all the truths, wanted or not, revealed.

I LOVE Dean's maturity in this episode. Okay, yes, he was also acting childish and petty, but I can forgive him the hurt he still feels. Like I said in an earlier blog, I still think that it will take time to rebuild their relationship and it will be completely different from the one they've known all their lives. And I think that's a good thing. Evolution, no matter how painful, when it's heading towards a better understanding can only make their relationship stronger and more grounded in honest emotions, ranging from love, responsibility to each other, trust toward each other and others. Still, I think that Dean's apology to Sam showed Sam that he was listening to him, really trying to understand where Sam is coming from, showing Sam that he, too, is trying. That's true maturity in my view. Call me a cock-eyed DeanGirl optimist. Dean is growing up too. I mean, it can't be easy to live your entire life with one essential defining purpose, to protect and save your little brother and then have that little brother, no matter how well-intentioned he thought he was being, choose a demon over you. You KNOW that's gotta hurt and it shouldn't be that easy to get over. It's also not that easy to change all those years of training, of a philosophy of life all overnight, but what I see is LIFE AFFIRMING progress for our boys and they are moving together towards their own goals, no longer in lockstep with the other so that one false move cripples them both. It's going the right direction and I think it's totally realistic that it's moving at the pace it is. If any of this was just happening at light speed, that a happily ever after without some kind of constructive confrontation was developing, I would have been angry and dissatisfied. That's not reality and it would've felt false and completely disappointing. I'm glad they didn't skirt the issue once the boys were back on the road together.

At first I worried that when the show started and Sam got defensive when Dean wanted to do what seemed like a simple monster hunt over getting the Colt which was what Sam wanted to do but when Dean pointed out that they needed to ease into being a team again, I didn't see his request as all that unreasonable:

"It's just that this is our first real case back at it together, you know? I think we oughta ease into it, put the training wheels back on."

And when Sam gets defensive about the training wheels comparison, thinking it's really him that Dean is talking about, Dean qualifies:

"No, WE, WE need training wheels. You and me as a team. Okay?"

"I mean, I really want this to be a fresh start, you know, for the both of us."


I enjoyed that alot. I thought that Dean was really trying to include himself in the learning curve, not just make it all about Sam alone.

I LOVED seeing Dr. Carson Beckett again!! Paul McGillion, though I have to admit that not hearing the accent was a bit jarring. HEE! I LOVED his accent as Beckett. My friend Tiffany said that his parents were Scottish and that he was born in Scotland so the accent came easily. *still bitter about Stargate Atlantis's cancellation. I loved that show and Beckett.

Of course I reveled in Dean's intimate knowledge of the legend of James Dean's Porsche. It was SO DEAN! When he was rattling off its history, it was like hearing him in Hollywood Babylon talking expertly about the Poltergeist curse. I just smile from ear to ear when I see that. It's like mining into my own mindless trivia knowledge when friends ask or mention something I have trivia knowledge for. It's a giggle. Dean's awe at examining the car is priceless, you'd think it was a beautiful woman (and the unrepentant DeanGirl in me can't help, but wish it was me he was laying his admiring eyes on-- yeh, yeh okay, stop laughing) and when he talks about how the engine number is the only way to truly authenticate the car, I melted. It's very sexy. I DIED laughing at Dean getting up the courage to get under the car to get the number, first coaxing the car like he does with the Impala, with soothing and affectionate words. Then with every creak and slip, you can feel Dean's heart race, heck, my heart was racing. The kicker was Sam's face looking under the car, startling Dean. I have to tell you, that moment, even though it was still in the midst of the tension between them, it was like this typical older brother/little brother moment where the little brother nags a bit at the big brother in the most annoying way. I chuckled.

The next crime scene was equally as delightful as Sam uses his high school Spanish to get information from Consuela Alvaraez (forgive the spelling). Also very sexy and the incredulous looks on their faces, it's when they are most disarming for me. When they are on the same page with something they both don't get, you see the total chemistry between Jensen and Jared. Their timing is perfection when it comes to comedy, both subtle or broad. They are totally in tune and I LOVE it when they do this and I miss it when it's not there. You can keenly feel the disconnect when it's not. The Wax Museum was yet another perfect moment that made me long for the togetherness of their comic rhythm. Sam's "That's really cool...ish" line was FUNNY!

I LOVED Jared throughout this. Yes, it started out like Sam was just going to be frustrated Sam again and nothing more, but his calm confrontation with Dean about the way Dean was ordering him around felt right, felt heartfelt, and most of all, it felt like someone who was telling a parent that he needs to become his own man. He tells Dean that one of the reasons he wanted to go off with Ruby was to get away from Dean. A statement that if not followed by just the right admission could have come off just as blame alone, however, Sam is just being honest, but not so brutally that it was without regard to Dean's feelings this time, understanding that in order to be heard, he has to be humble as well as truthful. Though Dean acts slightly defensive, he listens, waits for the full explanation instead of jumping to the wrong conclusions like he's done in the past. As Sam said, the way they were before didn't work and it was why they ended up where they were. It's true and you know that Dean comes to terms with that truth at the end when he tells Sam he was sorry for not seeing that what he was doing was affecting Sam.

"You're going to have to let me grow up for starters."

Great line and true. In many ways, Sam has acted like a spoiled brat, a whining kid brother, and an arrogant SOB. A psychologist looking into Sam's head would probably find the classic symptoms of someone acting out to get attention, to assert themselves against an authority figure, in Sam's case two authority figures, doing things, not necessarily good things, in order to prove, mostly to themselves that they should be taken seriously. Sam was acting like that. No doubt about that, the evidence is everywhere, but at that admission and at that moment, Sam was as humble and as true to himself as he has ever been. He's even more so when he says:

"Look, I know what I did, what I've done and I am trying to climb out of that hole, I am, but you're not making it any easier."

"So, what am I supposed to do just let you off the hook?"

"No, you can think whatever you want. I deserve it and worse. Hell, you'll never punish me as much as I'm punishing myself, but the point is, if we're going to be a team, you and I, it HAS to be a two-way street."


Jared plays Sam BEAUTIFULLY here and my heart aches for him and I'm already forgiving him, already willing to take him back. It's convincing and it's real. There's a hint of the little brother who loves his big brother, who wants to make things right with him and the little brother who's coming into his own, who is finally discovering who he was and who he wants to become. FANTASTIC!

Sidenote: I LOVE that Sam plays coroner. He plays it capably and yet funny.

I LOVE that we're back to Pagan Gods and okay, it's gonna kill me to say this, but Paris Hilton was a HOOT! She was actually quite good and her points about how we used to worship gods and how now our idea of idolatry is with celebs like Paris Hilton from US Weekly (which I admit having a subscription to). It's a very true statement of what some might call the degradation of society, of how shallow we have all become. You could even stretch the analogy to the larger current mythology of whether God is still alive in the Apocalypse. She parodies herself perfectly (dogs and spray tan) and I gotta say, I LOVED IT! Okay, and the look on Jared's face when Dean digs at House of Wax in which Jared was in with Paris was PRICELESS!! What a great inside joke!

It was a fun little episode. Just light enough to relax a little, but it had enough angst to realistically move Dean and Sam's evolutionary path back to each other.

Okay the SOON tag. The last time I remember seeing this was in Season 3 after Croatoan when we were left hanging after Dean's admission to Sam that their dad's last words to him were to save him or kill him for a few episodes of reruns, or a hellatus as we lovingly called a long break of reruns before a new episode was aired again. Now seeing it again makes me wonder if we're in for another one though according to the TV schedules we're getting I Believe the Children are our Future next week. Even if that's so, we still may be facing at least a couple of weeks thereafter of reruns. That said, the clips that flashed as agonizing teasers to what's to come were great!!!! Talk about a range of parodies to come! One on Japanese game shows, one on a sitcom (like my friend Tiffany, I'm not feeling all too good about this one. I know I just said that Jensen and Jared are great at comedy, but the clip makes them look "strained" at best, but maybe that's the point. Seeing will be believing with that one), and the one that looks the most HILARIOUS was the take off on CSI: Miami and spoofing David Caruso's aka Horatio Cane's sunglasses acting. I just about DIED with laughter at seeing Jared's near perfect impersonation too!!!!

For those of us who date back to the '70's will recognize the actor playing old Dean. It's Chad Everett. Like Barry Bostwick in Cris Angel is a Douchebag, Chad was the hunk of his day playing Dr. Joe Gannon on a show called Medical Center. He's aged pretty darn well I must say so it's easy to see him as an older Dean. I'm loving seeing these old timers from my youth show up on the show and who were the hunks of my teen years. It makes me feel old and yet like a cradle robber as well for falling for young bucks like Jensen and Jared in my mid-life (that's if I live to be 100 --I'm optimistic -- hee). May be old, but I ain't dead yet. Still can appreciate a handsome dude.

Let's hope that if there is hellatus, it's a short one. In the meantime, I plan to enjoy replaying the SOON section over and over again and laughing.

Thanks for reading. It's always appreciated. Here's hoping for I Believe the Children are our Future next week.

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And THE BEST symbol of trust and change for Dean was letting Sam drive. Dean could not have said anything in words that would have said as much to Sam than to let Sam drive the Impala.

So true! :) Just like when Dean offered to let Sam have the impala when they first split up, letting Sam drive now says so much.

Dean is growing up too. I mean, it can't be easy to live your entire life with one essential defining purpose, to protect and save your little brother and then have that little brother, no matter how well-intentioned he thought he was being, choose a demon over you.

Very well said! I think you put into words just why Sam hurt Dean so badly.

I enjoyed that alot. I thought that Dean was really trying to include himself in the learning curve, not just make it all about Sam alone.

I enjoyed that too. He seems to be trying to make it about both of them, not just Sam. And even if he struggles with that a little, he really is trying.

I LOVED seeing Dr. Carson Beckett again!! Paul McGillion, though I have to admit that not hearing the accent was a bit jarring. HEE! I LOVED his accent as Beckett. My friend Tiffany said that his parents were Scottish and that he was born in Scotland so the accent came easily. *still bitter about Stargate Atlantis's cancellation. I loved that show and Beckett.

As always, thank you for the mentions! *blushes* It really is strange to hear Beckett without the accent, lol. He sounds so different! But you could hear a little bit of a Scottish lilt once in a while, lol.

A psychologist looking into Sam's head would probably find the classic symptoms of someone acting out to get attention, to assert themselves against an authority figure, in Sam's case two authority figures, doing things, not necessarily good things, in order to prove, mostly to themselves that they should be taken seriously.

Once again, so very well put!

...the look on Jared's face when Dean digs at House of Wax in which Jared was in with Paris was PRICELESS!! What a great inside joke!

*grins* That really was funny, lol! He just looks so disgruntled, lol!

I'm not feeling all too good about this one. I know I just said that Jensen and Jared are great at comedy, but the clip makes them look "strained" at best, but maybe that's the point. Seeing will be believing with that one

I'm really wondering how they'll work it into the show. How do they wind up in a sitcom? The Trickster maybe? *looks hopeful* I'd love to see the Trickster again, and he always does strange things, but so far, they've all been very funny and fit with the show really well. Otherwise, I'm kind of worried about it...but I'm trying to give the writers the benefit of the doubt. *bites lip*

Awesome blog as always! :)

-Laughter

Hey Soph! Wish I could agree with you on this one, but the best I can really say right now is that I am totally befuddled and completely confused as to what's going on with our show. I thought both of the guys were written too OTT and everything was just packaged up for that little speech of Sam's at the end. Disappointed doesn't even come close to describing how I feel about this one. Way too many contradictions to previous stuff, and nothing on Dean's issues with the relationship. Maybe more will be made clear in subsequent episodes-I hope so. I dislike feeling THIS befuddled and confused. LOVED the Little Bastard scene-GorgeousDean! and Dean with the pencil in his lovely mouth, the Abraham Lincoln impersonation-AdorableDean!! and although I could have done without ANOTHER Dean apology in that last scene, just seeing Dean in his Leather with the sun shining on him...*sigh*...Yet AGAIN, and as he so often has in past scenes, he had the aura of an actual angel about him to me there-beatifically beautiful. I wonder if this "on-camera look" of Jensen's somehow influenced Kripke to do the angels storyline. It IS quite entrancing and mesmerizing, don't you think?...*winks*...

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